* Lobna chat

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:ID: 39a6e1c4-4d13-4cfb-b35a-9fedbd5ff1f0
:CREATED: [2010-06-16 09:46:02]
:CATEGORY: Lobna
:IMPORTED: [2023-02-08 19:22:47-0500]
:MODIFIED: [2010-06-16 09:46:02]
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Lobna chat

Me

Hi Lobna

Plane tickets to where?

12:01Lobna

to london and to cairo

12:02Me

Yes, they are expensive. I am sure the cross into Africa is even more expensive

12:03Lobna

yes but the bulk is in crossing the ocean

12:03Me

I am sure there are cheap last minute things

12:04Lobna

no

12:04Me

OK

And there is still money for the stay. You spend average 25K each summer in Egypt

12:05Lobna

yes, and the calender you gave ma is impossible

12:06Me

I am sure it can be organised if everything else is there

12:07Lobna

no but anyway nomoney

12:08Me

Yes, so what are you going to do?

12:09Lobna

no way out

12:09Me

Out of what?

12:09Lobna

of davis

12:10Me

So you are going to stay in Davis for the summer

12:10Lobna

i don't have choices

12:11Me

Are you going to work, study, or take a break?

12:12Lobna

i don't know, i'm tired and ready to break down

12:15Me

I feel I have been treated unjustly the last couple of days. I would like to discuss this at one point

12:15Lobna

:):)

12:16Me

I do not understand the smile

12:17Lobna

i'm smiling that i'm telling you that i'm ready to break down and you still want to te2leb el tarabiza

12:19Lobna

i'm smiling that i'm telling you that i'm ready to break down and you still want to te2leb el tarabiza

12:19Me

I take care of my emotional burden as I did yesterday when you were pressing on and despite it, so I am not dumping anything on you here. I am saying I want to talk.

فما فيش قلب ترابيزة لأن ما فيش خناق، زي ما ما كانش فيه خناق امبارح

12:21Me

How did you get money the last two years? Savings? Hasan?

12:21Lobna

ok. i was just telling you that i can't make it to anywhere because of the money

12:23Me

I know you were telling me that. I have been wondering where the money will come from all winter. How did you manage the previous years?

12:24Lobna

you never asked about my finance before, you shouldn't now

12:24Me

I did ask. Of course I did

and there is no reason to tell me not to ask now, even if I did not, but of course I did

12:25Lobna

no you didn't ask

even in the worst times

whatever

the end line is that i can't make it

12:26Me

Of course I did a lot, and each time I got the same answer: not now because it makes you tense

What is the plan for the summer then?

12:27Lobna

i don't know

12:28Me

Is this a final decision you are not going anywhere?

12:29Lobna

if i found money in the street it may change

12:30Me

Yes of course it will. No need to the sarcasm though

12:30Lobna

anyway it was going to be a very sad time

12:30Me

And now? Will it be a happy time?

12:31Lobna

no but it least you wont break my heart again which is the hardest for me

12:33Me

I can say the same thing about you, and it does not need us to be in the same place to do this

There is a good side to this. you can make some money or get on with school

12:34Lobna

for you it doesn't matter for me it does, each time i was trapped in you space, you were home and around you family and friends

i can't afford school and there is no jobs in summer around here

12:36Me

I know very well what matters to me and what does not, and you are wrong. You are talking as if you did not want to come to Egypt and as if it is possible I leave Egypt or the UK and live a few months in Cali, and as if you say I am welcome in Cali

12:38Me

Why can't you afford school? Hasan is going to afford it anyway next fall. Did he tell you he does not have the money now?

12:38Lobna

i'm just respeonding to you saying that it doesn't matter if we're together or apart because anyway we hurt.

i know he doesn't have the money now and there is other details

12:38Me

What other details?

12:39Lobna

the course offerings and other stuff

you don't give a shit about my education so don't come now to ask about all the details

12:40Me

The courses you need are not there? What other stuff?

12:40Lobna

yes, please stop stressing me

i can't

i'm about to break

12:41Me

I am not stressing you Lobna. Relax. You started talking about the money, so I am talking about the money

12:42Lobna

i'm a grown up, i can decide if i have the money or not, and if i had it i should pay the thousands that i owe to the fuckin bank

12:44Me

I am not trying to decide anything for you. You started talking and I showed interest. I think you like it when I show genuine interest. The bank debt is a problem, yes